VegasJen
Formerly Known as Clutchdust
Thank you all for your well wishes. I informed the mods about this prior to posting because I wanted my original account and just change my screenname but I guess there is some rigidity in the forum that made that a difficulty. In a way, this might be better. Why not start with a new account with my new identity?
The mods expressed the same skepticism a couple of you may have felt, thinking that my account was hacked. Even to the point of contacting me outside the forum to confirm that it really was me. This went on for a couple of weeks and I appreciate the diligence expressed in making sure I really was me.
As for the gay or straight part, I haven't really made up my mind yet. I'm still far more attracted to women but I'm holding open the possibility that later on in transition I may entertain other options. But for the rest of this year at least this is just about getting right with me. I have far too much on my plate to include a relationship at this point.
One last thing I will request. I know I'm only speaking here to one or two members so the rest of you can disregard this. But this is my journey, and my story to tell. I chose here to be the first non-TG site to come out for a reason. I will come out in other forums I am a member of at a later time. Please allow me the distinction of doing so.
The mods expressed the same skepticism a couple of you may have felt, thinking that my account was hacked. Even to the point of contacting me outside the forum to confirm that it really was me. This went on for a couple of weeks and I appreciate the diligence expressed in making sure I really was me.
I feel for him. The reality is that I believe there are some aspects that are easier for me, and some easier for him. The reality is that neither of us have it easy. I would rather go through cancer again. In fact, there was more than one instance when I thought, "shit, I wish it was testicular cancer. They could just take these things. Not like I'm using them". Funny how we think. If your family member is open, ask him and I'll bet he's had similar thoughts and experiences.I am sure that you feel a lot better now that you are out with this. A close member of my family is also transgender, female to male, and struggled terribly before he was able to be open and honest with the world about his situation.
Bravo!
I have to have a sense of humor about this or else I would kill myself. Believe me when I say that the best studies show that about half of the people who identify as transgender have attempted suicide before. That number is getting better now because society is becoming more accepting, or at least indifferent, which is a lot better than outright mockery and ridicule.Glad to see you took my post as it was intended. (good natured humor) No underlying barb was intended although many people today jump at the chance to yell foul at the drop of a hat and claim it so. It tells me a lot about your character. Today's climate of absolute political correctness has little room for individual human interaction. Wish you all the happiness you deserve.
BTW, are you lesbian or straight? :devil:
As for the gay or straight part, I haven't really made up my mind yet. I'm still far more attracted to women but I'm holding open the possibility that later on in transition I may entertain other options. But for the rest of this year at least this is just about getting right with me. I have far too much on my plate to include a relationship at this point.
Oh God! I don't think the servers could handle anyone else coming out! Not to mention I think GENE's head might explode!wow, this is the most activity i have seen on this forum in a long time. who is going to transition next? :beer:
That is why I'm kind of going "pedal to the metal" right now. I've actually known for more than 20 years. Even in my childhood/teenage years I was very confused about my own identity but related to girls/women more than boys/men. Granted, the 80's and 90's were a completely different time socially and medically, but I can't adequately express the sense of loss I feel for that time.I agree with 1Michel. As I've gotten older I keep fearing that I'll end up on my death bed with regrets on what I should have done, or not done in life. In my youth I was deathly afraid of failure, and some of my decisions and activities were self restricted because "I might fail" at that particular activity or action. I've spent the last twenty years trying to make up for that. Some things I've been able to finally accomplish, while there are other lost opportunities that I'll have to take to my grave. I still fail now on a regular basis, but I'm learning a lot of things and enjoying life more.
Good luck on this new journey of yours, and I wish you well, my friend.
One last thing I will request. I know I'm only speaking here to one or two members so the rest of you can disregard this. But this is my journey, and my story to tell. I chose here to be the first non-TG site to come out for a reason. I will come out in other forums I am a member of at a later time. Please allow me the distinction of doing so.